Possibilities & Opportunities

On the way down

2009-03-09T19:19:00.000-07:00

There's just so much on my mind.

I don't know where to begin.

Trial exams? The confusing state of my mind? The fact I am physically incapable of restraining myself from pigging out at home?

Sometimes I feel so listless, I want to scream around the block, "What's the point??"
Sometimes I feel so inspired, I embark on a 4-hour study session (hopefully this happens everyday).

The fact is, I love being at home 10000000x more than being at KY. Don't get me wrong, KY is special, amazing teachers, good friends but I do feel disillusioned there, like something is not quite real. Why oh why? Maybe I'm just tired of judgemental ppl. We find 'em everywhere.

I'm also confused about this one other thing that I can't talk about. I only get confused when I think about my long-term plans. Otherwise the state of the union is almost-perfect now.
I dare not jeopardise it.

Cappucino & Macchiato

2009-01-25T20:41:00.000-08:00

The difference between cappucino & macchiato...cappucino consists of coffee n frothed milk while macchiato consists of espresson n one tablespoon of frothed milk. (A v sleepy-looking Coffee Bean worker explained to me. Ironic for him to be sleepy, working in a coffee place)

I confess I am addicted to coffee...the taste, the smell...and I'm not talking about nescafe, but real, earthly coffee..freshly ground. Yummm.

Shen asked me in the cafe, after I recommended Neslo to her (a mixture of nescafe n milo..it's not bad), will I be able to sleep at night? That got me thinking...I don't really drink coffee to stay awake (except during breaktime to get through classes, or when i realy have to cram for exam), I drink it more for the TASTE. It's heaven.

So how perfect it is that the new addition to my house (after renovation) is a really cute coffee bar, with machines, marbletop n all? I can brew happily n conveniently...

Instead of the usual ice-blended at Coffee Bean (incidentally packed with fat n calories >.<), why not try yummy cappucino or if ur braver, the single espresso? It got me high. Weeeee.. Going back to college tomorrow...sigh...this year's cny aint that cool compared to last year.

Complicated

2009-01-24T09:15:00.000-08:00

I was listening to Avril's song, 'Complicated'...and it kind of hits home.

I like, you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
And you're, talkin' to me one on one
But you become

Somebody else
'Round everyone else
Your watchin' your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated

Reminds me of...some previous involvement...everything was SO hard n SO disastrous...I was trapped in it for too long. I really don't want to hold a grudge or have any resentment, it takes two to tango.

But seriously.
Never met such an aggravating person. Even being friends and being civilized get too hard, and I can just feel the vibes of animosity pouring out of this person's pores to me.
Whatever.

Just do your thing and I do mine.

KYUEM?

2009-01-23T07:42:00.000-08:00

I'm lame..I cant keep up with a blog...I was thinking of writing once a week...but once a month would be more feasible.

Wish my blog is more like Aud's or Shida's..
But this is me..

So...

I was going to talk about my January.
It has been awesome n colourful seriously! Not the least bit boring, xcept for d 1st week...n maybe the last? I rmbr saying sumting like "I'm freaking bored of college" to Iylia while in the cafe few days ago...I guess the monotony of waking up n going to classes got me down.
I still like my subjects though...finally finally could grasp Further after 1 week of struggling. No joke!

On a sombre note, I got rejected from Cambridge after weeks of faint hope that maybe, jz maybe...it was meant to be. I was sad for approximately 2 hours but 100% cheered up after a singing fest wt Iylia and dinner with H. God knows best for me. =)

The result of KYUEM'S student council election was announced today...didn't surprise me at all, the fact that certain students with better n more convincing manifestos have been passed over for those who could barely string words together to convey their message.

The structure of a closed community...quite predictable.
We vote for what we know, what we are comfortable with and what we want to see.
We vote for people we have common grounds with, most similar to us simply because of the fear of unknown.

On the other end of spectrum, those who could speak well are not necessarily the most efficient , responsible and trustworthy. Just like in debating, u twist words around (still with factual info though) to make ur team look good n ur opponent look bad.

So congrats to the new SC members n good luck!

I still think a certain person should improve his...ahem...language proficiency. Not that mine is completely Queen Elizabeth English, I talk pasar also marr...mixture of chinese slangs I pick up in secondary skool, n malay slangs I pick up in college.
Which reminds me of IELTS nxt week.

I should sleep now.

01/01/09

2009-01-01T03:41:00.000-08:00

I thought 1st jan would be the perfect date to start a blog.

The dawn of new year...

It's the BEGINNING.

Last year was full of changes..and dramas...it was anything but peaceful.
It was hard.
It was challenging
It was rewarding.

Being away from home for the 1st time. Making new friends, keeping in touch with old friends while missing them dearly. Expanding my horizons, realizing that things are not always clear. There are shades of gray and the only thing that can keep you grounded is your faith.

I decided to finally, finally create a blog because I know this year will not be any different...once you're out of high school, things change rapidly (esp if ur on a fast track programme).

Naming it POSSIBILITIES & OPPORTUNITIES is my own form of self-gratification to inspire and motivate myself to live life to the fullest. and I do mean THE FULLEST.

It's going to be an amazing, maybe hard (12 Alvl papers!) year.
It's going to be wicked. ;)
I can feel it.